La musa

Hace unos anios, en el vuelo hacia Argentina desde USA, me encontré con “El Ciudadano Ilustre”, una película argentina con premios internacionales.

Amo a mi país de origen, hablo el mismo idioma, tengo familia allí, me gustan muchísimas cosas que nos identifican pero ya no comparto algunas costumbres o idiosincrasia. El haber vivido tantos anios lejos de allí, y en otros “mundos” con otra experiencias, te cambia aunque no lo quieras, creo que se debe en cierta medida al instinto de supervivencia que todos tenemos y que nos obliga a mutar para adaptarnos al medio.

Si no cambias, si no te adaptas, es casi imposible que abras tu propio camino y seas feliz. Lo he hablado con muchísima gente y la mayoría coincide.

Bien, el punto es que me pongo esta película “El ciudadano ilustre” con la actuación de Oscar Martinez como personaje central. Y me atrapo!

Ya desde el comienzo, su angustia por la falta de su “musa”, lease creatividad por falta de motivación, y su discurso casi incomprensible al ganar el Nobel, y luego el rechazo posterior de las mas increíbles invitaciones y reconocimientos alrededor del mundo, hace que te preguntes pero que le pasa?.  Es que estaba en el “limbo”! hasta que recibió una invitación de su pueblo natal en una provincia argentina, y decidio ir.

Y ya ahí, desde el primer momento, el contraste de esa vida pueblerina y la suya es tragi comica. Pero es tan real!  Y entonces ocurren distintas situaciones, que producen toda clase de sentimientos. Pero lo que mas me impacto, como artista que soy, fue su “crisis”, su búsqueda de querer alejarse de todo aquello toda su vida y sin embargo fue lo que lo llevo a la creación y posterior éxito de sus libros, la mismísima creación de sus personajes inspirados en la gente real de allí. Su rebeldía, su soledad, su modo de ver las cosas y sus ganas de reencontrarse con sus raíces, y con el mismo, en el momento culmine de su carrera, lo hizo regresar allí.

Y vemos de todo! Los valores verdaderos y a su vez la hipocrecia. La envidia y la admiración. Los miedos y el amor. La inocencia y los suenios. Los recuerdos y la realidad. Por sobretodo el artista!, el ser controversial primero consigo mismo, luego con los demás, y su soledad incomprendida pero previsible.

Si, esta película, para mi se merece un capitulo aparte. Una película para pensar. Y el preámbulo para mi, de ingresar a mi país, donde también me encontré con situaciones inesperadas, y un calor increíble (pleno verano del hemisferio sur).

Argentina me recibió con la calidez a la que me tiene acostumbrada, con el trato de personal de gente que te hacen sentir un ser humano y no solo un numero.

Con esas pequenias grandes cosas que te llenan el alma.

La vida es eso queridos amigos, una búsqueda permanente de nuestra esquiva musa. Aquella que nos permite escribir los mas bellos versos, pintar las mas bellas pinturas, componer las mas emotivas canciones.

Al final del dia, se trata de encontrar nuestra musa, Esa que siempre esta esperandonos en nuestro interior. Se trata de reconectarse con uno mismo y Tambien de saber encontrarla en los ojos de quienes tienes frente a ti.

The Muse, English Version

Writing a blog is an exercise of the mind.

This time, as usual, I wanted to talk about several things, but without expecting that the one that came to my mind would show up in my flight from USA to Argentina.

I decided to watch an argentine movie called “The Distinguished Citizen” that caught my attention cause of its actors and several international awards. Lately I haven’t had time to watch too many movies, even less from my country (Argentina), and I decided to do it to feel closer to my own culture.

I love Argentina, I grew up there, I speak the same language and I still have family and many good friends, but I don’t share too many traditions any more.  I haven’t lived in there for many years. I have travelled a lot, and that, changes you, whether you like it or not. It is a natural life instinct, something that you need to do in order to make your own path in a different world and be happy. It is a new you.

So, this movie, “The Distinguished Citizen” with the magistral acting of argentine actor Oscar Martinez, goes to the point in a dramatic and almost funny way and it got me.

This drama/comedy movie catches you from the very first moment even more if you are an artist.

It is about a recipient of the Nobel Prize of Literature, who has been living in Europe for decades. His luck of inspiration and motivation to create and his speech when he received the Nobel prize, and then the rejections of the most incredible over the top invitations around the world, make you wonder what is wrong with him?

He really was in the “limbo” until he accepted an invitation from his hometown and decided to go. And right there, is where the comedy starts. He finds both irreconcilable differences and similarities with the people of the little town, which makes the movie a tragicomedy, causing on you all kind of feelings. 

But as an artist myself, where I felt the most impact is on his crisis, his eternal runaway from all of that during his life, but at the same time, all his stories based on characters from there, his inspiration and further success were originated in there. His rebellion, his loneliness, his way of looking at things and his hidden feelings even to himself on the top moment of his career, made him go back to his roots.

And we see everything in there! The true values of a society, and the hypocrisy. The jealousy and the admiration. The innocence and the dreams. The memories and the reality. But overall the artist, this controversial character with himself and with everybody but at the same time with his strong values, and predictable loneliness.

Yes, I do think this movie for me, deserved this blog today. A movie that made me think. And the preamble for me to come back to visit my country., where I also found unexpected situations and a terrible heat (summer in the South Hemisphere).

Argentina received me with the warmth that I’m used to, with the quality people that makes you feel as a human being and not only as a number. With this small, and at the same time, big things that makes it worth everything.

This trip, as always, is great to see the loved ones, listen to them looking at their eyes and finally give a huge hug that says it all. And also, watch my own culture with another “glasses”.

Life is all about that dear friends, a search of our slippery muse. The one that allows us to write the most meaningful words, paint the most wonderful paintings, and compose the most beautiful songs, or just as simple as live with a purpose.

At the end of the day is all about finding our own muse inside ourselves and being able to see it in the eyes of whom is in front of you as well.

Thanks so much for being here, Love you all.

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